[Russian Beauty] I will heal you [Ninel Akrobka]

How would you like to be healed by a beautiful young woman with a Russian accent?

Having a hard time? Feeling down and tired? Well, come and listen to this ASMR voice work.

Character Voice: Ninel Akrobka

[Contents]
(1) Main track (7 minutes 45 seconds)
(2) Cover image
(3) Script (in English)
(4) [Bonus] Text file with a link to Ninel's fanbox

Hey, why are you crying? What happened to you?
You're having a hard time... I see... You're going through a lot, aren't you? It's tough.
(Sigh) Adult society is hard, I'm in junior high school too, but... there are a lot of hard things.
(Sigh) I'm sorry for talking only about me... but I want you to listen to me. I'm having a very hard time right now, too.
I'm being bullied right now. But I can't talk to anyone about it. There is no one on my side. In that class, there were other targets besides me.
But one day... a really small chance ・・・・ of something happening, and I was the one who got the blame. It was hell from there on out.
I didn't always enjoy going to school. I was an introvert, but I had a few friends that I liked, people with whom I shared interests... I enjoyed spending time with Yuri-chan.
(Sigh) The world is so cruel. I'm all alone. I can't tell my father or mother that I'm being bullied.
I can't tell my mom or dad that I'm being bullied, so I just smile at them as if nothing happened. I can't tell my mom or dad that I'm being bullied.
I'm being looked down upon. At school, I have no one on my side... I'm shaking, sweating, and just waiting for the time to pass. From the beginning to the end of the school day.
Society is cruel. I have no choice but to tear off my wings one by one, one by one, from the group of friends disguised as familiarity, so that the ・・・・ adults will not find me.
I'm a crow.
(Whispering) You're a crow, too.
Living is like walking with a very heavy burden on your back. No one understands me.
(Please sob while hyperventilating for about a minute. )
I can't feel safe at home, the base where I really want to feel safe. That's why I was thrown out.
(Whispering) There is no place for me. I've never been, and I never will be. I'm a broken doll.
It's hard for you, too. Maybe you're just like me... a broken doll.
(Whispering) Broken dolls are no longer useful. They have to hide in a corner of the room, where no one can find them...
(quiet sobbing voice, about 30 seconds)
I'm sorry... I know I'm a strange woman... I'm sorry... I'm emotionally unstable.
I wanted to live.
I thought the world was a brighter place, like a light. Ever since I was a kid, the world has been full of new expectations and discoveries.
So many toys. So many toys, so many games. There were so many expectations when I was a child.
(Whispering) As I got older, things got more complicated.
So many ties.
(Whispering) It was hard to be denied by my parents. I thought that my father and mother would always be on my side.
Things didn't always go the way I wanted them to. I always blame myself.
I want to be strong. I want to be strong, but I just can't stop myself.
(Whispering) It must be hard for you too. You're hurting, aren't you?
(Whispering) You're not the only one. It hurts for me, too. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts so much.
I can't trust anyone. And I can't confide in anyone.
Despair. And I just want to disappear.
If I could just get rid of this pain, I would ・・・・ think so.
To gain self esteem is really a difficult thing. It's really hard.
(Whispering) Do I really have any value? I think so, and ponder in circles.
(whispers) I sometimes doubt if I'm not need by anyone. Nobody loves me
"(Whispers) Denial, denial, denial. This world is full of denial and mental violence.
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